I feel kind of bad, because i have no PKD - Post Kutz Depression. Last year i had it bad and this year i guess i've become a cold emotionless bastard. I think that the reasoning is that Kutz this summer drained me, it drained me dry. Here's what i think: Last year, because it was my first year at Jewish Leadership camp, and because of the people, my summer was about defining my jewish identity, and growing as a reform jew and as a person. It was a completely new and exciting environment. This summer was not as new. I think that this summer taught me how be better at social stuff, but i also think a BIG chunk of my summer was devoted to problem solving. Dealing with other peoples problems - big ones to boot, and my disappointment with the programs this summer, both contributed to the feeling and reality of being burnt out. I hate to say it, but i reached my limit at the URJ Kutz Campus for Reform Jewish Teen Life.
So maybe i'm not a cold emotionless bastard, for not missing kutz, and not missing my friends as much as they seem to miss me - maybe that does make me cold, but i'm done. Its hard because i don't want to convey that i'm just tossing my Kutz friends by the wayside and saying, "i'm done with you", but i think that for now, i'll chill out, and wait for PKD to come in a couple of months, when i'm hating my real life and wishing for friends who appreciate and understand me to the extent that nobody here ever could. I thank EVERYONE who contributed to my Kutz Experience - even if you weren't at Kutz and you made me think about something i learned, and especially if you were at Kutz. I can say that i will devote my time and energy to ensure that those after me have the same life-changing experience at Kutz as i did.
You Stay Classy Kutz Camp, and thanks for everything.
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